M 씨

M 씨 My new love

Just bought a new comp!!! Yeah!!!I'm pumped! I'm not the type that think alot when I buy stuff but I act otherwise if it includes a huge amount of my money... I went roaming the other day without my parent because my dad is so much of a surprise! Just now when we went to the shop to buy my lappie, my dad decided he needs  new one too!Can't blame him though, he really needs a new one, the one we have at home is like from ages ago, he bought a HP product, a touch screen one so that my mom can use it too.It's nice but I'm too imersed with my new lappie, I'm gonna call it M 씨 (pronounce M shi) because it's similar with the brand! Oh My Puns!!!
   I got interest hearing about this lappie because the promoter really looked like Jang Wooyoung!!!! Can't hold my laugh rite then! Seriously! He even have the same ugly hairstyle Woobunny have/had?!
     For more info for my lappie  http://www.msi.com/product/nb/GP60.html

All I can say rite now is

 WHAT AM I DOIN WITH MY LIFE!!!!

 Have been doin nil since I come home, such a potato couch I am!!! Bye!!! (nampak x kemalasan tu terserlah)

Cry-ing

Right now I should be studying for SHE since the exam is tomorrow but I was so bored so to draw something... at first I want to do animation for pewds but his a little bit difficult so I decided to draw Cry... I love Cry, He is so easy to draw, basicly cause he doesn't have hands!!! Anywho this only take me an hour or so... so this is it!

Cry dance away!

I realise that I didn't mark it after I finished gif-ing it... ahhh, nevermind! it's not that good anyway, no one gonna steal it... so that's all I want to write for now...สวัสดี

Gerontophobia/PeterPan Syndrome/Isolation = Me

 I'm not always the brightest person ever in fact from what my parent told me I think I was having autism, it's just that I didn't get diagnosed or anything, I just went through it LIKE A BAUSE! Because I was so isolated when I was a kid, I rarely talk to others and I often talk to myself however I have no imaginary friend what-so-ever. Growing up I still have does symptoms, just not that obvious because I met with crazy people through out the years who thought me to talk, sing *I swear that before I met these peoples I never sing out loud* and laugh REALLY LOUDLY! I gained some confidence that way!
 However I'm  still having gerontophobia.(Gerontophobia- Fear of old people or of growing old.) I admit that I have this PeterPan syndrome *I refuse to grow up!* and I get anxiety whenever elderly is near me, it's the same fear I have with clown (just I don't scream/yell whenever they are near). I just hold my breath *for no apparent reason* and I get all sweaty and I avoid eye contact AT ALL COST!!! This is why I try not to call any of my friend kakak or abang cause once I do, I never be normal again!!! It's unavoidable phobia with lecturers...*got nothing else to say*.
 Last year was the worst year ever because of a 'series of unfortunate event' that I decided to end at some point. *no worry, I was just hurt emotionally....and mentally* (the story is a bit exclusive). Sometimes I wish I could just delete my memory of those peoples just like I delete files in my computer. Enough  about that, after I ended the misfortune I had with those people, I fell into a deep depression for almost half a year and this was during my entrance in KMK. I was isolating myself and refuse to talk to new peoples that I met, I often sits alone but the good side is I started to get closer with my family.
 I grew up in a nice house, I watch TV all day, I was a good kid so realistically there was nothing to talk to my parents about. My dad usually gave us pocket money once a week but there are times when I didn't even ask for pocket money for two weeks *most of the time I didn't spent any money in a week* then my dad started a silent treatment on me because I didn't talk to him in a long time.*It's not my fault I don't need more money!*
 But when the incident happen I talked, even cry in front of them *honestly I told you I'm a good kid, I don't cry when I fall, I don't cry when I don't get what I want*. The last time they saw me crying was when my brother went to boarding school and that was when I was 7. I really talk alot afterward.
 When I enter KMK it was hard for people to approach me but not for Umai. For 1st Sem Umai, Me & Syida always stuck together in class but during lecture I sat in the front row alone (I was still emo at the time), then during 2nd Sem we had all girl class so I was more comfortable & with the existence of my classmates I was back to being me! Thanks alot to Tikah, Umi & Syahira for being such a good friend o me!

People who made me want to be a better person... Zank Qyu Beri Mucho!

Being in USM, HBP in Sem 1, I am still missing those angels but life goes on, I was busy the whole sem, assignment after assignment! I didn't even have time to sleep sometime but know that I wuv u guys! My phobia and antisocial behavior still creeps in me sometime, but at least it is less than ever! This Sem I got close to Stacy, Alaa, Vita & Syeila(this one is my roomate of course I got closer to her). Syeila, Vita & me are from the same principle so we will see each other often for the next 3 years but for Alaa whose taking ID and Stacy whose taking CM, only a few of our class will be the same but may our friendship last till death!

May our friendship lasts

May next year be a better one fro me and for all! I'm gonna do my resolution right next year!
In Sha Allah! JUST U WAIT!!!

Memoirs from 2013

RUS 104 Performance & Awards Night 2013/2014!!!

This is it guys, The End!!! Well, the end of RUS 104 that is! I'm so proud of archie's performance that nite, i could not care less about others performances! Even thought I'm just the audio editor for the performance, it took me a lot longer cause it needed others to coordinate the right timing for the performance, I would like to thanks Syeila & Din for the songs contribution...Zank Qyu!

Since I don't have the video, so enjoy the pictures (inipun curik orang punya)

XZBition Day

This is not me tryin to shorten the words again, it's actually spelled like that! It actually is our 7th project for RUS 104 and the date is on 16th of December but because of my anxiety over the plausibility of Kakak(my cat) given birth and my lack of sense of time, after the submission of project 6C I decided to go back to my hometown... Only on the evening of the 15th of December that I'm back in USM *I'm really sorry*... I put up a few projects, made boxes for the spotlights (cause it was too bright!) and made the fun paper thingy for the photobooths (bnyak lah tu, siap berkemas lagi) for me not sleeping that nite was ok cuz i just came but for the peps that had been there since morning! Kesian la jugakkan..
Pagi tu 7 plus-plus balik bilik mandi & tukar baju, balik ke Drum semula by 8 plus-plus... Blakang serius rasa nk patah! time Dean bagi speach memang tak tahan terus masuk booth duduk *sorry Dean, tapi saya dengaq* after that macam dapat aura kengkawan ku gagahkan diri tawaf Drum nk snap gambaq member2!!!
That day was fun walaupun keletihan but cannot sleep nyenyak sebab sakit blakang!*nilah balasannya kecik2 bawak bnyak sngat buku teks p skolah*
Moral yang boleh kita ambik disini adalah 'Jangan bagi anak2 anda bawak banyak buku semasa ke sekolah untuk mengelakkan dari sakit belakang di usia muda'
Sekian...

Ranting Projek 6!

Benda boleh siap awai jangan la lengahkan!

 Warning kepada sesiapa yang x gemarkan rant, silalah skip post ni! TQ

I'm starting off this post with a ranting session *if you read this & terasa silalah ambil iktibar* working on this project really menyakitkan hati because ada la makhluk2 nih yang bila orang suroh jadi ketua x mau tapi bila leader bagi arahan mulalah dia nk kembali menjadi Chinese dari China yang x faham sepatah pon Bahasa Melayu *padahai lahir kat Malaysia jugak!!!*... Kenapalah aq setuju nk jadi leader?! Naseb badan la hai...
Bila kita kata "rancang dulu/ calculate la kayu brapa bnyak nk pakai?" jawapannya "xpa kita tengok lampu nk pakai yang mana dulu kayu nanti kita tngok la" what the hell kau nk tngok lampu, frame amphitheater pon aq x nampak lagi! *padahal sepatutnya dh start potong kayu time tu* & that day waste satu jam dekat Komtar bejalan-jalan di kedai2 mencari lampu *walhal aq boleh tidoq sedap punya aritu*
That's that, & ada lagi satu makhluk ni yang awainya gedik2 volunteer nk jadi bendahari tapi qeja dia nk passing kt orang lain, berlagak macam pandai sangat! Sepatutnya semua perbelanjaan dia yang kira *aq siap ingatkan dia lagi setiap kali dia kluaq beli barang!* & a couples of days before submission projek dia p beli beberapa barang yang x cukup, & malam tu nak buat kiraan, tetiba dia angkat sora ngan aq "itulah x tahu mana resit pegi, u patut ikut beli barang tadi!" dalam ati aq api dah membara dh, *apa kejadah aq yang nk simpan resit, ang yang sepatutnya kira semua tu!!! klu aq ikut lagi slow la progress projek maghruk sintok oi!!!*
Lagi satu hal nak rant ni, ada la jembalang ni yang buat qeja xmo teli(matching in style Mohd Fairuz 'aq la tu'), dia ingat qeja group ni boleh kira sendiri2 then bila gabung dengan magisnya semua akan matching!~ Dah la bila orang mengharapkan nak siapkan part dia, dia boleh x mai then dia mai buat qeja alone *bajet Lone Ranger sngat!* pehtu bila suma turon padang dia boleh lesap tanpa berita... pehtu time malam tu kami semua mendongak ke langit mengira bintang2 sebab dia dgan senang hatinya p tngok international gala nite hapa ntah!!!
Bnyak plak aq rant ni! Biasa la klu rasa xmo buat qeja, aq pon klu boleh xmo buat qeja, nk dapat free mark ja... p tunjuk muka, duduk2, lepax2, chit chat, lepas letih sembang balik... sapa x mau lagu tu, tapi aq kesian kat orang yang buat qeja... to these kind of people tolonglah jangan selfish sangat k!

However, i nak berterima kasih kepada yang hardworking tak terkira kepada Pei Xiu, Nisah, Pejo, Ammar *walaupun ang slalu ilang tapi bila ang ada tu aq slalu kerah buat qeja, aq tau* dan terutama skali YangYang!!! abang muscleman yang slalu bertungkus lumus, berpeluh-peluh mengergaji kayu dan papan yang ada!...

p.s to myself:

Don't be like the one you despise!

MT In Langkawi

23-25 Nov aritu p Langkawi... Ingatkan tahun ni Langkawi xkan masuk list percutian aq buat kali pertamanya namun.. Jeng! Jeng! Jengggggg! School trip p Langkawi jugak... It's not that I don't like Langkawi or what since experience every year tu different & this time p ngan kengkawan plak but still ada rasa ''I WANT TO GO OTHER PLACES TOO'... Anywhat still dikira lucky la~ p Langkawi, atleast got no work to do time tu *ada tu ada, just bila kt langkawi, satu hapa pon x ingat dh*

Pic nanti update lain sebab hampir 400 gambar kat langkawi SAHAJA! mostly sebab continuous pics but still bnyak kot netbook nk proses, dh la barang menimbun dlam lappie ni...ingat nk wat gif segala maybe lambat lagi nk update post

 I had fun kt Langkawi! got to know more people, got to know more about people & places I went. Bilik no. 3 Kampung will forever be in my memory...